I Once Had A Best Friend That’s Now A Stranger

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You were the first. The first best friend that I ever had. We were only young when you left, but I felt my little heart break a bit when we drove away. I don’t know who you are now, but I hope you’re still out there somewhere enjoying life.


It’s kinda sad that growing up and changing schools drove us apart, which made seeing each other no longer easy. We both made new best friends pretty quickly, and soon forgot about our friendship. We sometimes pass on the street and smile. I hope the garden fairies still visit you at night.


I can’t even remember how it happened. We let someone play us and we were both left without a best friend. Sometimes I see you post on social media and we share the same interests. Funnily enough, it’s not emo bands anymore. Even now, when I listen to The Black Parade, you pop into my mind for one brief moment.


You let your boyfriend call me “bitch” but I was still there for you when things went downhill. When you cried down the phone after you heard he was cheating. When you found out that he loved the girl more than you. When they finally got together, and you fell to pieces. I stood up for you and told him how much of an idiot he was to lose someone like you. Yet you told people that I was mean to you, that I left you out. You still went out of your way to hate me. Fuck you, you didn’t deserve a friend like me.


We spent every weekend together, endless sleepovers, and so many laughs. For what? For you to ditch me when everyone else did. How did a group of girls turn you against me so fast? I know that you still see them now, and that still hurts. 


Remember that night? The night we walked from Archway to Waterloo. The whole distance, North to South, trying to put our friendship back together. By the time we crossed the bridge we were back to our old selves, and I was so happy. We laughed by the Thames. We went back to mine, and you stayed over. We were back to normal: eating pizza and chatting shit. The next day, you went home and didn’t speak to me again. 


You’re a right dick, you know that? Best friends until you didn’t need me anymore. Until I was moving away for uni and I had no use as a friend. I can’t believe that I was sucked into that lie, but you were oh-so-good at it. You disappeared, like a ghost. It’s 3 years later so now, now, don’t try to add me on facebook, because we both know that’s not going to happen. 


I remember the last time I actually spoke to you, heard your voice so to speak. We used to call each other all the time, not for long, not that kind of friendship. We made up for it face to face, getting into all kinds of teenage trouble. It was my first day at uni and I called you to chat, but you seemed rushed and uninterested. After that we just sent texts, and after you stopped replying, our friendship was just a myth. Now I know that you replaced me with someone else, and I guess that’s okay.


Out of everyone on this list, I miss you the most and I don’t know why. We shared the same passions, the same dreams, and the same sense of humour. We were in different forms, so I used to come into school early just so I could spend more time with you. I used to go to your house to see your cats and play Dragon Ball Z – and your mum made me laugh so much. You were supposed to visit me at uni but you bailed. One text, no reason. I really do hope that you’re living the life you dreamed of.


Somedays I want to turn the clock back to simpler times and go back to when I knew you both. We met on a whim, through chance, and we were the most unlikely of trios. We spent all day fucking around, without a care in the world. I spent most days simply enjoying your company, the way you made me laugh. Sometimes I think I miss you, but I don’t. I mourn the fact that we were never best friends at all.


  1. Kathryn O'Connor
    July 18, 2016 / 1:01 PM

    Oh Hol I loved this post, it's so deep and personal to you. I felt quite emotional reading it not gonna lie haha! When you write something like this down, it makes you realise just how many people have come in and out of your life – it's quite scary.You're much better off without them! xKathryn | Chapters of Kat

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:13 PM

      So many people are only temporary! <3

  2. Ilah E
    July 18, 2016 / 1:04 PM

    This post is so original and amazingly well written! XxLITAH

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:16 PM

      Thank you so much, Ilah! <3

  3. Rachel Rogers
    July 18, 2016 / 1:38 PM

    I'm crying so much and I don't really know why. This is amazing, so touching. It reminded me so much of all my lost friendships. Your writing is fantastic, too. Well done! https://rachelramblingon.wordpress.com

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:19 PM

      That means so much, thank you Rachel x

  4. LisaG XoX
    July 18, 2016 / 1:48 PM

    Loved this post so much Holly and yes I was right, different reasons but still down the same sort of line…so yeah I can totally relate to this. Such a touching story hun & incredibly well written! Great job lovely!!XoX 💕

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:26 PM

      Thank you so much, Lisa! <3

  5. Alice Gibbs
    July 18, 2016 / 2:01 PM

    This was so beautiful and so sad. Wonderfully written. I hope you have some amazing friends now :)Alice | Whiskey Jars Blog

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:26 PM

      I certainly do <3

  6. #M
    July 18, 2016 / 4:02 PM

    I really loved this personal post. I has it was said before in the comments it made me realise that many people have came in and out of my life and left some kind of impact on it. I could easily related to some of the stories and it reminded me of the friendships I've lost myself.Have a nice dayMathilde | http://flavietherese.wordpress.com

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:31 PM

      I'm so glad that it was relatable for you! <3

  7. Jess | The Indigo Hours
    July 18, 2016 / 4:22 PM

    This was so beautifully written! It's weird how our friends come and go through our lives, and someone who knew everything about us at one point, would barely recognise us now.Jess xo | The Indigo Hours

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:31 PM

      That is so true, girly! xo

  8. Leanne Saunders
    July 18, 2016 / 5:41 PM

    I seem to have gone through my fair share of friends too but no 8 I related to the most it's a shame she stopped texting me but I feel like I've changed and realised that she had a lot of negativity that was bringing me down so I let go and she hasn't bothered since because she's found someone new which I see on FB so I've unfollowed her now Leanne | http://www.oohsimplething.blogspot.co.uk

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:32 PM

      Definitely isn't worth anyone getting you down, it's all about positivity! xo

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:34 PM

      Thank you so much, lovely! <3

  9. aimee cottle
    July 19, 2016 / 7:44 AM

    This was so beautifully written but so sad. I could definitely relate to this having had at least one best friend break my heart. x http://www.aimeeraindropwrites.co.uk x

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:36 PM

      Sending you positive vibes girly! xo

  10. Melissa Marshall
    July 19, 2016 / 12:15 PM

    I think everyone can relate to at least one of these ex best friends. I relate to a few but when them best friends left I think I grew up a little inside and saw people for who they were. Fingers crossed you have the best of best friends now 😀 xxwww.thegirlandthetreadmill.blogspot.co.uk

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:36 PM

      I certainly do, thank you Melissa! xo

  11. Lifestyles of Emily
    July 20, 2016 / 12:59 AM

    I loved this. It is very well written and soo relatable. I've definitely lost some best friends and some with similar instances. x Emily || http://www.lifestyleofemily.com

    • Holly Ah-Thion
      July 30, 2016 / 6:41 PM

      Thank you so much, Emily! xo

  12. Nirvana Wright
    December 15, 2016 / 10:03 PM

    This popped up on my Twitter and it so resonated with me. From childhood friends to uni buds I have had at least one of the above ex-friends. Great post. xoxo

  13. Chichi
    April 22, 2017 / 2:00 PM

    Great post, it really touched me and I relate to it so much. I've had a lot of rubbish friends in the past.Chichichichiwrites.com

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