Monday, 26 June 2017

Why 2017 Is The Summer To Say "Fuck It" & Embrace Your Body



Hey there - if you're reading this, you probably have some body hang ups, right? That's because everyone has body insecurities, and it affects everyone to different magnitudes. Put simply, I cannot believe that I'm wearing a PROPER bikini in this post. What the hell happened to that insecure hol who cried over all of her wobbly bits during summer holidays & liked way too many "#fitnessgoals" posts whilst sobbing into a tub of Ben & Jerry's?

Fuck it. I'm so over hating my own body. Honestly, I'm over the whole "body insecurity" being the norm thing - I know it's really cliche to say that "everyone's beautiful in their own way" thing but it's fucking true. 

If you want a little insider info, the behind the scenes goss about a blogger bikini photoshoot so to speak... it's not all golden sunsets & effortless candids. The first few days of my last trip with Clickstay were so difficult, in terms of getting the shots. If you didn't know already, I definitely fit into the perfectionist category of human being and I always strive to out-do myself. So I thought I'd push myself outside of my comfort zone and actually get round to shooting some swimwear - something I've always wanted to feel confident enough doing but just didn't think my body was "good enough" to be snapped in a 'kini. With a size 10/12, curvy, 5ft 1 frame? I'm no where near "instagram goals" material in terms of bikini bods.


Wolf & Whistle Carnations Lace Up Bikini*

The first few swimwear shoots were awkward and weird & I totally felt like a fish out of water (I'm punny, promise). I kept asking my boyf how I was looking, if I could check the photos, and obsessing over how to stand to make myself look thinner. Yup, I totally did the "bambi" pose. Once I got home that night and had a scroll through my camera roll, I realised something very important. I looked fucking awesome. Curves n' all, I was totally rocking my Wolf & Whistle 'kini like crazy & my gingham ASOS one piece was doing all sorts of things for my E-cup cleavage.


ASOS Gingham Swimsuit
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I couldn't help but think, what the actual fuck? Why was I so worried about looking "too big" for a swimwear shoot? I realised that prior to my holiday, I was scrolling through IG and putting myself (and my body) down for not looking like the thin, toned, six-pack abs, bikini-clad, model-esque women with effortless, infinite candid feeds that a short, curvy girl could only dream of. Right? WRONG.


ASOS Fuller Bust Lace High Waist Bikini Top
ASOS Fuller Bust Lace High Waist Bikini Bottom

Turns out, it's not about wanting to be confident - it's about just... being confident. I looked back at the photos, some of them with rolls, some of them my butt is totally eating the back of my briefs (it happens, #thicc) - and I still fucking loved the way I looked. Know why? I looked genuinely happy. If I wasn't worried about the way everyone else perceived my body, I would naturally love it. It's only the thought of someone else judging my thick thighs and bingo wings that makes me conscious of the way I look. 


ASOS Leopard Bikini Top
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South Beach Mix & Match Lattice High Waist Bikini Bottom

It got to the point that I was even comfortable enough to wear a proper two-piece bikini (sans the high waist to hide my tum tum) because I couldn't have given less of a fuck. I learnt a seriously harsh lesson on my holiday to Cyprus: if you want to be body confident, love yourself & be body confident. I was the only person stopping myself from embracing & loving my body, and you know what - I can't wait to get out there and take some more bikini snaps on my next break. No backsies, I'm fucking embracing my body & no one's going to stop me. 

How do you embrace your body & feel body confident?





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26 comments

  1. Love this!! You look absolutely amazing!!! X

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  2. This photos are amazing! Your body is similar to mine except yours looks so much more toned! Yes you're curvy but you look absolutely amazing.
    Alicia x
    Aesthetic Obsessed

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    1. Ahhh girl, forever wishing I was toned haha - thank you! x

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  3. I am livingggg for this post! Yesss to body positivity! And you look absolutely amazing girl! Xx

    www.xosophhh.blogspot.co.uk

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  4. This was a great post! We should all learn to love our bodies! These pictures are super cute xxx
    http://fallingforablog.blogspot.com.es/2017/06/the-best-15-dresses-for-summer.html

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  5. I can honestly say that reading this has truly changed my mindset. I'm going on holiday in a few weeks and I literally hate my tum, but really, who gives a fuck!? It's a tummy and yeah it might not be flat, but who cares! Thanks for this and you look beautiful. X

    Kate// itskaterose.com

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    1. I'm so glad it's helped you to embrace your body girl, you are beautiful! x

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  6. YES GIRL!

    You look great in all these pics :) x

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  7. I fucking love this Holly!! Too right you should be body confident because you're fucking gorgeous Holly!!
    I used to be body confident but it's gone away somewhere.....I want it back!! 😢😢
    Xoxo

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    1. Thanks so much Sarah, fuck yeah! xo

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  8. You look beyond amazing and I love this post!! x

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  9. I love this! I struggled so much with body confidence last time I went on holiday and I'm determined to be kinder to myself next time. You look beautiful! xx

    Toasty

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    1. Definitely lovely, we all need to make a little more time to love ourselves xo

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  10. Thank you for writing this post! I had a similar realisation just after my holiday this year, and I really regret wasting time feeling self conscious.

    Also, you look amazing! Confidence really suits you x

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    1. Yesssss I totally agree with you, what a waste of time! xo

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  11. You look a m a z i n g Holly, yes girl! These photos are gorgeous and you should be so proud of yourself.

    Courtney | www.lashesandluxe.co.uk

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  12. Love love LOVE this post! You're the same size a e and only an inch smaller haha, so thank you for showing me that if you can love your body I should too! If I was going on holidays this year I'd by that black ASOS two piece in a heartbeat! Anyway, great post, keep it up! <3

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    1. Yes girly, I totally feel you. LOVE YOURSELF! XO

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