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Sunday, 24 April 2016

7 Anxious Thoughts That I Have Daily | Anxiety



You should probably know that I really did have a good sob whilst writing this post.

It really is difficult for me to read because it's shows just how real these feelings are. I have both health anxiety (which is often related to Obsessive Compulsive Disorder OCD) and social anxiety, with paranoid tendencies. This anxiety also causes me to have depressed thoughts. 

Some of the feelings described here I don't experience everyday on the regular, but I may experience them very frequently on a bad mental health week. These feelings are very very very real to me, and mostly lead to panic/anxiety attacks - and if you've ever been unfortunate enough to have one, you'll know how truly horrible it is.

Please be kind and respect that everyone's anxiety struggles are different, but equal.


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1. "Oh boy it feels great going for a workout right? Wait, why is that guy looking at me? And that girl. Omg everyone is looking at me. I must be doing something wrong. What am I doing wrong?!

I can't do this, I have to leave."


2. "What a lovely day of uni revision! I might just treat myself to binge watching Four In A Bed. Oh, oh god, the news is on. Someone died in a car crash. Shit. I'm going to die in a car crash. Yup, I'm going to get fucking hit by a car.

Okay, if I don't leave the house tomorrow that can't happen, so I just won't leave the house."


3. "Wow, it really does feel great to finally be out of the house and doing something productive, I can't remember the last time I came to uni properly. Oh great one of my peers wants to brainstorm about a project. Oh crap, they asked me a question. I know the answer, I know it. Waaaait, what if I get it wrong? I'm going to look so stupid, and everyone will just laugh at me.

That's it, i'll just tell them I don't know."


4. "It was so nice to bump into ///// on the way home from uni. Oh, okay. They want to go for a drink. Like right now. Shit, but we haven't planned it, or organised it. Where are we going? What are we doing?

Omg okay Hol, don't panic - just tell them you're busy."


5. "Hmmm my leg has been really hurting recently - guess it just has something to do with my joint disability. Oh look a facebook article, better read it even though I shouldn't. Shit, this girl has cancer which all started with a pain in her leg.

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck I am literally going to die. I'm going to die. I'm going to die. I'm going to die."


6. "I'm all tucked up in bed, how comfy. Well I can't wait to have a meeting with my project manager in uni in a few days, it'll be great to discuss a few things that I'm unsure about.

Oh no, what if it goes really badly and they get annoyed with me, what if they know i'm going to fail but won't tell me, what if they think that i'm not good enough to even be doing this degree, what if...

Shit, I am not getting any sleep tonight."


7. "Ouch, my head really does hurt right now - these normal tension headaches are getting really annoying. Oh crap, what if it's a brain tumour, it could totally be a brain tumour. Shit it make's total sense, I have a tumour in my brain and I'm dying.

NO. Not this again. I can't do this again. I fucking can't do this again."

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I did find this extremely difficult to write, boy did I feel better for it. It's very easy to just let anxiety overwhelm you, but actually speaking about it can been soothing for the soul. If you'd like me to do another post, with a little bit more detail about my anxiety and depression - pop a comment down below and I'll see what I can do.

If you want to know a bit more about Anxiety - check out the Anxiety UK website.

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11 comments

  1. Girl you're not alone with these thoughts! I have very similiar thoughts on a daily basis too. I also have health anxiety and social anxiety, basically I have a generalised anxiety disorder! I'd love to see another post on anxiety from you, as I find it very inspiring when I read others are going through the same sorts of things, it makes you feel less alone and more understood! All the best for you, Holly xx

    Lauren | itslaurenvictoria.blogspot.co.uk

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  2. This was such a great post to read - it just goes to show that it is sometimes the small, mundane tasks to someone else might be the BIGGEST deal for you!!! It's definitely something we all need to talk about more so well done for uploading this!

    Jodie @ Jodetopia x

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  3. I suffer too and it usually sees me being labeled as "difficult". Apparently I should just "try not to think about it". Wow, why didn't I think of that?!

    Wicked North

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  4. I can relate to this so much Holly and I'm so proud of you for writing this.
    What you said about the headaches, I've convinced myself 9 out of 10 times that I'm literally dying when in fact it's just a migraine. Silly brain.

    You're so brave for opening up about your anxiety, love you lots. x

    Kathryn | Chapters of Kat

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  5. I dont know how you can all live like that! I dont have anxiety and ready this post I feel so glad I don't. It must be really difficult but you all are very strong for living with it and learning new ways of overcome that anxiety.

    Great post!

    www.thelisasworld.com

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  6. Aww holly thank you for sharing! I myself have had little thoughts like yourself but I never put it down to anxiety, I always assumed it was because of my not so high confidence or that maybe I was being selfish as I do enjoy my own company sometimes. Thank you so much for opening people's eyes to the tribulations that many people do face in today's world 💕💕

    www.lauralivinglife.com

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  7. I can really relate to this, and I think you're so brave for putting this up on your blog. Well done you! x www.aimeeraindropwrites.co.uk x

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  8. I relate to this so much, especially social situations. They can be so nerve wracking especially when you're out your comfort zone. Uni has brought me out my shell so much but still so scary at the same time. It's good to let it all out xx

    Tamz | http://www.throughneweyesx.com

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  9. I can definitely relate to this post. What sucks is that people who don't understand anxiety, can be rude and just think you're making excuses or overreacting, but that's not true at all. I'm glad you wrote this post because I'm beginning to see that a lot of people in fact suffer from anxiety, and we're not alone in this.

    xx
    Nida | Caked To The Nines

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  10. I relate to some of these quite a lot and especially #2. I hate watching the news as I start getting super paranoid and that leads to panic attacks... And #7 is one I have on a daily basis as I was born with a mini tumor in my head and now and again the panic of it coming back puts me in a right state...
    Thank you for sharing this Holly :) Tania xx taniamichele.blogspot.co.uk

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  11. This post was so insightful for me because I don't suffer from anything like this. I like to understand others and so this was really interesting and helpful. I love that you opened up about this because it can not only help you but also help others. :)

    S .x http://ramblingsofayoungprgirl.blogspot.com/2016/04/curly-hair-styling-products-im-loving.html

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